Sometimes I think "Only Me"

Today has been an interesting day for once, and a very long day I'm so tired and still have to make it through 8hrs of work...boo. Anyway for the interesting part. So I'm @ my parents house dropping off my moms car (b/c I was blocked in by a U-Haul truck @ my place) and James calls me. Nothing interesting there until he says he has something to tell me and he's not sure how to do it. Ok with everthing going on with us my natural reaction is 'Are you breaking up with me?!' I get 'NO!, I think my neighbor made a pass at me.' Poor guy he's freaking out over this, b/c I've met the neighbor that made the move and I could tell she had the hots for him. But I didn't really think she'd make a pass she's met me and everything.

Then to top it off she lured him to send her a pic of him b/c she said she new a lady from the marines that "knows" James but can't remember her maiden name. So James was like sure and sent her an innocent pic..I know because it was one he sent me the other day, he was fully dressed. Not a problem, well then she was curious about his phone b/c she wants a new one, so James was like here you can look at mine. Well she got into his photos...and she found a pic of him..not nude but he's in his underroos. He was @ the Gym and sent me a photo and he thought he had gotten rid of all those photos, guess not. When he got his phone back that's when he realized she saw the pic. He apologized b/c he was sooo embarassed but she was all happy. Then she was chatting with him in his garage and like offered her services to him, and rubbed his arm.

But here's the icing on the cake, he goes to the gym and when he gets done he a text waiting for him from her. 'You are sooooo bad! You have planted thoughts in my head that make me blush just thinking about them! Thanks for the pic though! Sorry 2 bug you. Ttyl'
So he forwarded that to me, but I got and thought what pic I didn't send a pic...oh hell no he's not getting nude pics from some other chick! I was ticked and called him to go off on him. That's when I found out she sent that to him. And has sent at least 2 more texts since then. Creepy neighbor! Can we say restraining order! Seriously she waits from him to come home in her garage and then she comes over..I've seen this first hand she did it on Sunday. Anyway that was my grand day!

Touchy subjects

So, I got to spend the afternoon with James and his kids. Which was very nice minus that fact I got burnt just from sitting in the car with the top down....only me.

This afternoon was important because we actually talked about stuff we probably really didn't want to but knew we needed to. His concern was my "irrational jealousy issues" Which I agree I do get jealous but its not really because of who he's with its because they are getting time and I don't. Came to the real reason I react the way I do (especially recently) the whole my ex may be getting deported. Yeah he tells me that he can't/won't let her get deported. I told him he better give me some advance notice on what he's going to do and know that I will never talk to him again.

As much as I love him, I know surviving that will be one of the hardest things I'd have to do...and being around him would kill me.

But at least we understand each other...I know what he has on his plate, and he knows exactly why I'm acting how I am. I'm not saying its the best situation but at least we listened to each other and understand one another a little better.

Irritated

So I'm back from my awesome conference! Haha....the last day was actually interesting the 1st and longest day sucked balls.

But, not that I'm that surprised, James didn't want to hang out. He was actually working some special duty thing. So that sucked because I really wanted to see him. But he texted me today with some awesome information. He told me we needed to discuss my jealous issues over random people. By random people we mean females that he spends more time with than he does with me. Also my sense of entitlement to him. He seems to think I feel he's supposed to invite me up every thursday & friday and if he doesn't I get mad @ him. To be honest yes I do feel that way...I'm sorry I feel I deserve time with him. It just happens that yes those are my days off, and he never wants to do anything on the other days of the week....so what am I supposed to do?!

He's so frustrating! I feel like we are slipping away from each other and that's because we don't spend any time together at all. We see each other once every 2 weeks. What kind of relationship is that? Especailly when his exes see him more than I get to. If the shoe was on the other foot he would be so pissed but of course he's a guy so the whole double standard thing is in effect. We do really need to talk because stuff is just going to build up and one of us is going to blow up on the other, which won't be fun. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Blah!

I'm excited for tomorrow well actually, technically later today anyway I get to go to Great Wolf Lodge! Too bad its for a conference, but I get out of actual work tomorrow night..woo! Its for Mayor's Court where Bonnie and I will learn about all the stuff that has changed since September and we are now doing wrong. Such a pain..at least at this one I won't be passing out halfway through like in Septmember...going straight to a conference after working 8hrs..on 3rd shift isn't good. I'll get back on Friday so I hope, crossing my fingers James will want to do something, but I think he's still a little upset with me from over the weekend. So we shall see.

Smooth Sailing..haha

Soo Friday night was date night. Of course that didn't happen until 11pm. I felt so bad for James because he felt horrible, he had a whole night planned out on what we were going to do. I was also upset because I shaved my legs for that..haha j/k. He thought he had his kids placed for the night. But I guess things fell threw and he got one squared away and that left him with the other one. So we spent about and 1hr 1hr and a half trying to track down his sister. We had given up and headed back to his place with his son when she called. We were on exit away from his and she was like come back bring your son. So we drove back to Sterling. This is almost an hour drive.

We grabbed some KFC to take to his sisters ( I was starving!) and we ate had a drink and then left. From there he took me to one of his favorite spots to go, Club 33 it was nice. A place where its not dead but not crowded either.

Its so bad when he came and picked me up any frustration I had with him over the past 2 weeks melted. I didn't realize I missed him that much...I'm such a sap. I still remember why I was upset, but I didn't bring it up.

Then this morning we got up early and did lawn work...well I watched. Me and moving blades could be a bad combo. But I did end up getting burned....didn't think about putting sunscreen on. Go me!

The best part is the only slight dispute was the fact I gave him a hickie..and he's been teased about it. I told him not to let me get drunk, but he didn't listen. Plus it was payback for the one he gave me a few months ago.

Date Night!

So today I turned in my application for Pickerington. Cross those fingers! I take the civil service examination on May 2nd...hope I don't fail that.

Best part about today is that (well there are 2 parts) is that it is finally freaking nice out. I think I got burnt in my car on the drive to Pickerington...sweet! Plus tonight is date night! I'm sooo excited...its been so long since its only been the two of us. No parents, siblings kids or animals. Hopefully we can go w/ no agruments too...wishful thinking on my part..I'm sure I'll be opening my mouth and inserting a foot @ some point tonight. I'm just that good.

Yesterday was a peacefull day. I worked on my application and started doing laundry. I drove my mom around to. Also I test drove a car..wishful thinking. A mercury mariner...it was nice, but not me. I want something else, I'm just not sure what yet. When I see it I'll know and I'll obsese over it and cry because I'll never be able to afford it. Unless I get the new job...seriously cross your fingers!

What can go wrong eventually will

So I get off work this morning and have to meet w/ my dad's bestest Joe. He took my car to the mechanic b/c I don't speak automotive. We found out that my transmission is slipping I've had the car 3yrs and this would be the 3rd time it needs fixed. WTF! Anyway I guess the univeral joint is also bad. Don't know what it is but I'm guessing the car won't work without it. So that's just peachy..since I have no money. I'm applying for a new job in Pickerington. Yes I know I'll be farther away if I work there, but my lease isn't up in Sterling until November so I'll be around until then atleast. If I do get the job there..cross your fingers it will double my pay I get here. I really need that. Plus its only 10min. away from James' place yea! I'm a dork I know.

Speaking of James, he's had a lot on his plate the past month. Some of it I can look past but there are parts that I don't feel is his problem and he shouldn't worry about it, but that isn't going to happen. We are having a date night on Friday..I'm soo excited. I'm hoping that means no kids. Don't get me wrong his kids are great, the make me laugh so much, but since he's introduced us we never go anywhere without them...well except for the grocery store 2weeks. But even then that was because we were getting Easter candy.

Well that's all my excitement for now, we'll see what kind of shanigans I can get in to on my days off.