Sorry I haven't been keeping up on this. I've just been in a fog of bad humor lately. James and I are still on a break it doesn't seem to be getting any better. Plus I just haven't felt like talking about whats going on with other people. I've just wanted to put myself in a bubble. I know I shouldn't but I'm sheltering myself. I know whats going to happen, I'm kind of ready for it..I guess. I just don't want to deal with it right now. Plus I don't want to be a downer for everybody. And today would have been our 1yr anniversary. I guess its not that big of a deal, but it was to me, b/c it would have been my 1st one. So sad to say..I was kind of looking forward to it. Oh well.

I'm just so tired of him saying its not about feelings or I shouldn't take things so personally. How can you not when for nearly a year you're with someone and then all this other crap comes up out of nowhere, and changes everything. It is personal...it does change emotions and everything. I'm not a complete ice queen with no feeling whatso ever. Right now I wish I was, because then this wouldn't bother me. But what doesn't kill us makes us stronger right? I'm going to be one tough cookie when I get through this...in theory.